I feel desperate for results in every category of my life. Everything about my current patterns is not working, leaving me feeling so defeated and depressed with crippling anxiety. My personal aspirations, my relationship with my partner, my attentiveness to my family and friends that I love the most, my confidence, and every little thing in between was lacking to say the least. I am in a pretty dark place in my life, and I blame all the things that are out of my control on the results I am getting.

I’ve struggled immensely with self-worth/love, and I am extremely hard on myself, so it’s been difficult to see my choices/results from a different perspective (I’ve been on autopilot). I have this false belief that things need to be done a certain way, a certain order, a certain timeline, or they’re not going to get done “right”. I let my perfectionism and OCD dictate my happiness meter and I am wasting a lot of time living in the cycle of thinking about doing it, not following through, procrastinating, and then living with regret, guilt, and resentment. I want to live authentically, and I been begging the universe for an opportunity.